strings of life

Monday, May 29, 2006

Val has been involved in a car accident on friday night, 8pm. thus she has been by and large uncontactable, and has not blogged yet. so this posts is to inform all her frens out there who do not noe of this unfortunate happening yet. we appreciate all ur concern.

~Chuan Li

P.S. hope this has not sound too formal, but it deems tat the tone is fit for such a situation.

P.S. find robert langdon =)

LeVaire :: 9:57 PM

Thursday, May 25, 2006

Soccer Finals - MJC VS VJC

One sentence: I am extremely proud of our soccer team!

We may not have won due to certain short comings, but nevertheless, the spirit the soccer guys showed moved me beyond words. Their determination, their passion, their drive, their hard work. They were tired, injured, exhausted and totally drained. But still, they played on bravely, courageously, they played their very best and they gave it all. I could see the sheer determination on their faces as they ran after the soccer ball and fiercely defended their goalposts.

Sighs after sighs of relief were breathed as our goal keeper made excellent saves. And I just about screamed my lungs out. Yeah, I lost my voice. It sounds like wheezing bagpipes or something now.

Really, I am so proud of our soccer team. I can't believe I was so moved that tears sprang into my eyes when the match ended. I just couldn't help it. It just touched me so much that the soccer boys played so hard for the school. The tears just came. And tomorrow is declared a day off. =D The soccer team deserves it. Well done, people!

LeVaire :: 11:00 PM

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Due to a CERTAIN someone's incessant naggings.. I am hence 'coerced' to blog. *mutters inaudibly..*

Last saturday morning, I received a message from Wenqi. "Hey! Mr Ng is treating us to ice cream today! He's invited you along! Wanna come?" Still groggy with sleep, it barely registered in my mind till I read the message a second time. Incredulous, I was yet at the same time filled with a sense of joyful delight. He remembers me!

Yup, Mr Kevin Ng, my ex-CT of 06S07 in TPJC. He's like one of the nicest CT on earth! On Valentine's Day, he bought a rose for everyone in the class! And on College Day (last sat, coincidentally with TJ's College Day as well) he treated the class to Swensen's ice cream and even invited me along! But I didn't go, cos.. I felt kind of awkward and embarrassed that he's treating me even though I'm no longer in TPJC. And I already had activities planned for the day. So yeah. Pity though, I miss them all.

I am incredibly exhausted and drained. It's really incredulous how draining school can be. I had a biology test today which I kind of screwed up. And I really mugged for it last night. I studied and studied till I fell asleep with my notes beside me. And then, I don't know if I dreamt it or this really happened: I woke up at 3.30am and studied again. It's shocking really if that really happened. And if it were a dream, then it's shocking too because even in my dream, I could see my notes vividly, the words, the names of all the enzymes, substrate, process and reactions. And I could remember them all. I think I'm losing it. My mind, my sanity. Everything. HAHA.

Okay Marc, I blogged. So there.

LeVaire :: 10:05 PM

Sunday, May 21, 2006

Chillin' out on my sister's iPod cos the Math Summary was driving me up the wall. Got myself addicted to this song which I would like to dedicate to a special someone.

Because You Loved Me - Celion Dion

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

[Chorus]
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

[Chorus]

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

[Chorus]

LeVaire :: 10:30 PM

I don't believe this. Half of our break tomorrow is being robbed off again. I don't know how much longer I can withstand this man. I don't mind make-up lessons on Saturdays, seriously I don't. But please, I cannot stand lessons non-stop. Halfway, my brain would just shut off and I'd blank out. There's only so much a person can take a day. I feel like a zombie. A living dead.

I dislike this. I dislike living to only do homework, study, revise, do tutorials, do assignments, do projects. And when I go out, it's only to study with my friends at the library, airport or fast food restaurants. Every day, it's study study study, mug mug mug. MJC is like... Mugging Junior College. Really, it's nuts. And it's shredding my sanity to pieces and slowly killing me from the inside.

I never realised the extent of my stress until Daren told me about our break being cut short for more tutorials. I totally balked at that idea. Physically, emotionally, mentally, whatever, you name it. I could literally feel my heart constrict and a dull ache in my chest. You know, I was just psycho-ing myself that the following week would be the very last week of school. But I was just placating myself. When I look at my holiday schedule, I was initially quite relieved to see that school is for only half a day - either morning till afternoon or afternoon till late afternoon (about 5pm). But a few days later, it dawned on me that the schedule contained only lectures. And my growing suspicion was confirmed when my chinese tutor said that tutorials will be arranged for in the holidays.

Elga, I echo ur sentiments about JC life. Lord, help me. Please.

LeVaire :: 7:47 PM

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Am I to be denied my privacy?

My diary. My safe haven. A place where I can pour out my everything without being judged. A place where secrets are safe, never to be told until it be stumbled upon. A place where no one will judge me, scorn at me, laugh at me for the words I say, for the emotions I feel. My diary. It is my sanctuary. And yet you read it.

Am I to be denied my privacy?

My cellphone, you read some of my messages.
My computer, you read some of my emails.
My mails, the envelope always torn open before it reaches my hands.

Am I to be denied my privacy?

LeVaire :: 9:15 PM

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Whoever invented Mondays and Tuesdays ought to be shot. Perhaps Wednesdays shall be dumped into that list as well. I'm suffering from a common malady known as the Monday Blues. But in my case, it shall be extended to include Tuesdays as well. Tuesday is the most torturous day of my week. Have I already grumbled about it? Hah, no matters, a repeat episode wouldn't hurt yeah? SIX FRICKIN' PERIODS NON-STOP FROM 12.05 - 5.05pm without a single break in between. I was half-starved, half-dead, half-alive, half-asleep, half-awake, half... you get the gist ya?

Thinking about it, I must be an old-hand at psycho-ing myself. Just like I was psycho-ing myself for the past few days about lit and econs. I was feeding my brain thoughts like "Val, you know what? Econs is going to be very good for you.. It's gonna be good for your future, your career, your way of handling financial matters..." Yada yada yada..

Oh by the way, I made it into CO Exco. Yeah, I got Section Leader, amazingly with my 10 seconds rally speech.

Anyway, chinese calls. I've a test tomorrow. Ciao.

LeVaire :: 8:50 PM

Friday, May 12, 2006

Chamberesque

Woots! First practice of Chamberesque today! I lugged my heavy violin to Talz's house. Sigh, my case is really heavy.. cos it's like partly made of wood. Quite a lot of parts actually. Ah wells, after not touching my violin for a couple of months my tone really... sucks. My pitching has gone off too. Darn. Marc's violin colour is sooo nice! And his tuning pegs and chin rest are BROWN!! So nice can?

So anyway, we played a bit of Canon, Time To Say Goodbye, Air on G and bits of stuff here and there. Chuan and Talz were on the flute, Em was on the piano. Marc and I were sitting on the floor with our violins and were playing variations of Twinkle Twinkle Little Star at one point. Introducing members present today..

Pianists - Chuan Li, Emily, Tallie and Me (the noobest one, hahaha)
Violinists - Marcus and Me
Flutists - Chuan Li and Tallie
Vocalists - Emily and Me

Florence plays the piano and flute too but she's sick so she didn't come today.
Then after that, Talz's maid cooked some Orh Bi Bur (according to chuan) and so we settled down to eat. Then Marcus had to clear the stuff out of his braces and went to the toilet upstairs. Talz, Em and I immediately got to work. Heh, Marc's birthday is this coming Wednesday but we decided to celebrate it early. So the three of us were in the kitchen, frantically fixing the candles and sticking it onto the cake and all. Chuan Li and Kenneth went upstairs to detain Marcus awhile.

Then they came down, Talz's maid dimmed the lights and we all sang the birthday song. Marcus was totally stunned. He froze on the stairs and stared at us. Then he went "Oh my God". About thrice I think. HAHAHA. Kodak moment! Then he made a wish, blew out the candles, cut the cake and we all settled down to eat. And as usual with Kenneth around, the conversation always deviates off to... well, stuff not linear. But goodness, I laughed so hard and sooo much that my face, throat and stomach hurts so badly! Gosh, when was the last time I ever laughed so hard and so spontaneously? Gosh, I miss those old times..

LeVaire :: 9:32 PM

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

You know what? The more I think of it, the more I feel that taking economics was a big mistake. I MISS LITERATURE SORELY!! Yes, even Wilfred Owen's war poems. Heck, throw me a John Keats anytime. I'd take it over any economics case studies. Even King of the Castle is waaay more interesting than case studies. Nevermind that I wish to strangle Hooper with my bare hands.

And goodness! They are doing Pride & Prejudice this year! Nevermind that it's unabridged, it's still a novel (and romance at that), something fictional and totally enjoyable. You know, reading good poetry is like eating a good slab of steak and drinking a glass of sweet bubbling champagne. Ah, the thrill and joy that flows through your body at the sight of good poetry and literary works... Alright, enough. I shall cease to dwell on this matter any further lest I make my life studying economics a misery.

Biology practical made me squirm today. I'm serious man. It was to find out how temperature affects the rate of respiration. We used a live tadpole for our experiment. Oh my frickin' goodness. We put that poor fella into a beaker half-filled with water, then added ice water in until the temperature reaches 10 degrees celsius. TEN!! My heart ached for the poor freezing tadpole inside. But then Doris reassured me that they are cold-blooded. I felt slightly comforted. Then we repeated the same thing at 30 and 35 degrees celsius. The tadpole was a cute little thing though. Especially when it opens and closes its mouth.

This Friday is Vesak Day! Praise the Lord! I am very much in need of a break! Yesterday, I just received my June Holidays Time-table yesterday. Freak. June Hols gone~~ Studies, school, CO, mug for mid-years. Really man.. Last day of school is supposedly on the 26th May. But nooo, I have my GP mid-year exam on the 29th May. RAHHH!!

LeVaire :: 8:59 PM

Sunday, May 07, 2006

Name 20 ppl u can think of at the top of your head. Dun read the below questions before you write and tag 5 ppl to do this survey.

1. Chuan Li
2. Marcus
3. Tallie
4. Emily
5. Aiysha
6. Danson
7. Doris
8. Priscilla
9. Sabrina
10. Kia Meng
11. Christopher
12. Edison
13. See Hui
14. Ahmad
15. Hadi
16. Xinyan
17. Soo
18. Wenqi
19. Elga
20. Mr Ng

How did you meet 14? (Ahmad) At a BBQ when I was sec 1.

What would you do if you never met 1? (Chuan Li) Well, I wouldn’t know would I? If I’ve never met him, then I wouldn’t know anything about him. Like, would u do anything about not meeting someone you’ve never met?

What would you do if 20 and 9 dated? (Mr Ng and Sabrina) Goodness. Seriously WRONG! It’s an impossible pairing.

Did you ever like 19? (Elga) I’m not a lesbian. But yes, I do like her as a friend.

Would 6 and 17 make a good couple? (Danson and Soo) They’re both guys. What do you think?

Describe 3.(Tallie) She’s very intelligent and my hyperventilating partner when it comes to cute guys =D

Do you think 8 is attractive? (Priscilla) I’m not a lesbian, people. But she is cute.

Tell me something about 7. (Doris) My very good friend. We’re both in CO and we make faces at each other whenever we pass by each other’s sections. Hahaha!

Do you know any of 12's family? (Edison) Nope, I don’t.

Whats 8's favourite? (Priscilla) Erm, choir?

What would you do if 11 confesses that he/she likes you? (Christopher) Ah, now that’s something that will never happen.

What language does 15 speak? (Hadi) English and Malay. And perhaps a bit of German.

Who is 9 going out with? (Sabrina) No one I think.

How old is 16 now? (Xinyan) 17 this year.

When was the last time you talked to 13? (See Hui) Just yesterday (Friday).

Who's 2 favourite band/singer? (Marcus) I’m not sure if he has an utmost favourite..

Would you date 4? (Emily) Gee, how many times must I tell you that I’m not a lesbian?

Would you date 7? (Doris) She’s a female. I’m a female. What do you think?

Is 15 single? (Hadi) No, definitely not.

What's 10's last name? (Kia Meng) Choo I think..

Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11? (Christopher) I told you, that would never happen.

What school does 3 go to? (Tallie) VJC

Where does 6 live? (Danson) Somewhere in Pasir Ris..

What’s your favourite thing about 5? (Aiysha) We go totally crazy and let our hair down whenever we’re together.

Have you seen no.1 naked? (Chuan Li) Are you insane?! No!

5 ppl I wanna tag to do this:
1. Chuan Li
2. Tallie
3. Emily
4. Aiysha
5. Doris

There Marcus, I posted it. Haha. Back to my PI. Ciao.

LeVaire :: 9:19 PM

Friday, May 05, 2006

Angel

You descended from the heavens, clothed in your winged glory.
Your wings, oh your wings, the light of the heavens emanated.
Your voice, song of the heavens, a divine chorus rousing me from slumber.
Your eyes, soft as sunlit blue, holding me in your tender embrace.
You gaze upon me, dewy-eyed sadness, I see eternity in a flash.
You touch my face, hands radiating perfection unparalled.
You kiss my lips, minty-fresh breath unforgettable.
In an instant I am brought to my knees, salvation.
In the arms of an angel, fly away from here.

By Danson Cheong

A beautifully written poem by my classmate, Danson. It's amazing, really. One of the best works my eyes have ever beheld coming from people my age. Oh, if only I could as well. Haha. It's funny really, how I know the words, the vocabulary, but I just can't seem to put it well on paper.

Anyway, MJ Library is my utmost favourite place in the entire school building. And besides, it has movies for loan! Scouring through the bookshelves, there were sooo many DVDs I wanted to borrow. But sadly, we are limited to only one each time. So yup, I borrowed Somewhere In Time. I've heard of this movie from my mum. It's a very old show; a show screened during my parents' time. The music is absolutely beautiful, especially when it's being played by strings. Bowed strings rock my life!! Wuahahahahahaz. Okay, I've gone mad. And I digress.

So yes, about the movie. IT IS SO LOVELY!! Elise McKenna is sooo beautiful! Oh my Goodness. And the male protagonist is Christopher Reeves. Oh man. Romantic story plot. Absolutely lovely. The next movie I'm eyeing is Persuasion (the book by Jane Austen). Oh, I can't wait. =)

And my weekend treat - 2001, A Space Odyssey and 2010, by Arthur C. Clarke. Well, those including Somewhere In Time. Man, it's really time I let myself unwind. Biology really killed off all my brain cells today. I mean it. Cyclic photophosphorylation. Non-cylic photophosphorylation. G-protein. Tyrosine-kinase receptors. Bla bla bla bla bla.

LeVaire :: 10:25 PM

Thursday, May 04, 2006

PE will really be the death of me. First on the agenda: 2.4km run. And run I did. Finally, for the first time in many weeks, I ate breakfast. A simply made, ham sandwich. And I ran and ran and ran on the endless red track. Like most Singaporeans, our Sun is equally hardworking; mercilessly frying, scorching and barbequeing our poor runners on the sickening red track. By the time I stumbled off the track into the inviting shade of the school building, I felt ready to throw up my ham sandwich.

We elected our permenant CG commitee today. I was finally relieved of my unexciting treasurer post - only to be elected as the Chinese Rep. Totally splendid, no? And I had to say "qi li!" at the beginning and the end of every Chinese class. Today was my first time saying it and it was rather mortifying. I opened my mouth, but the words seemed stuck in my throat as everyone swivelled their heads in my direction. In the awkward silence, I just about turned purple, opening and closing my mouth like a fish out of water, before I managed to sputter a weak "qi li" after about half a minute. Absolutely embarrasing.

And Chris, I would blast you off into oblivion if it were deemed humanly possible without the aid of a bomb.

LeVaire :: 6:03 PM

Monday, May 01, 2006

Glorious glorious day! I got my hands on the book I wanted!! Well, actually I was supposed to go borrow it from the library yesterday, but my family went over to the condo and I spent the whole day doing my homework, watching bits of the "I Not Stupid Too" DVD and swimming at night. And I tell you, the pool is absolutely a most romantic setting at night! The soft pool lightning creates a totally romantic ambience and I was totally basking in it, twirling around in the water. Erm, walking of course.

Alright, I'm digressing. So I was saying, the book, yes, the book. I didn't get to borrow it yesterday and today is Labour Day so the library would be closed. I was rather disappointed, but blame it on my laziness and my ever present procrastination.

Around lunch time today, CL came over to my house to teach my sis maths. I was working on my PI at the computer, when suddenly he called my name. I looked up and LO AND BEHOLD!! In his hands was... the book!! I think my heart almost stopped when I saw the book just a few feet away from me. I just about squealed and jumped out of my chair. Turns out that he borrowed the book yesterday. Went to the library in the pouring rain (so he claims) Haha. =)

Man, that just totally made my day! I spent about every possible moment I could reading that book. Screw chem, I can't solve that stupid question. And the book was every bit as promising as its summary. It's like Pearl Harbor, but instead of the Japanese, it's about the Nazis. World War II. I'd finish the book tonight. =D

Now, I'd have to go practice my scales and piano pieces now. Ciao!

LeVaire :: 8:50 PM